last forever ?

today is a part of my life BIG DAY <3

actually the truth is, i was gonna telling this part to move.
go awaaaaaaaaaaaay
go away from me
i want to say let's separate!

this part, don't deserve anything for always be with me
because
I'M NOT COOL
i'm not the right place

it's about, when i was going to say Let's Break Up
i saw the smile
the angle smile
that can't make me do anything.

i was silent, didn't have any braveness
to let this part go.
LOL. so it was me who hold this part when actually this part want goooo away from me.


maybe next time?
let's prepare until we really have a braveness to separate.
until that day, let's live our life happily.

why friends were created, dude

have you ever heard about this, "we are different, that's the reason why Friends were created"

it was just one week we hadn't meet each other, and Keny didn't get Keny's 'LOL
come to univ and than back to home
staring on my laptop until Keny got a cutie-sweetie-blackie-EYES

honestly, Keny does missing all of Keny's BEST FRIEND
including Ochii and the other :")
Keny tried opening hands to many guys in univ
but they didn't reach Keny's hand that's why Keny NEVER wanna KNOW them WELL

we are different in ALL WAY
but they always absolutely complete Keny's blank part :")
Keny is the one who can't control emotion, but they control Keny's
easily get anger and 'ngambek' but they know how to make Keny's smile blossom
Keny, the one who is easily to cry, and they ALSO know how to wipe Keny's tears

they are my friends, NO ! but they are my BEST friends

Dear God,
i have a lot of best friends too before them
but they left me alone when they get a new one or they have a new boyfriend
they forget about me when we are in a far distance and me who always try standing beside them


but now, God, may I make one wish from this day on now and forever
please, don't take them from my heart ANYMORE
let them stay in my heart and my shoulder forever
let me set up my big hug to them
don't let them to forget about me

God . . . I love them so much, I do caring them so much, I miss the everywhere, I really need them

yaaah
it's kinda absurd or maybe now, everyone who reads this posted is laughing at this page lol
but Keny told the truth
when Keny's lips can say those words to them, Keny prefer to write down here
maybe not all them can know and understand what Keny said
but, Keny knows, God will tell it to them :")

two sided

i'm different with keny.

i'm a part of anger, jealous, envy, dumbfounded. lousy part of us.
everytime and everything will turn to be a dark.

iam a side who will never ever satisfied.
i sometimes wonder how keny can accept this side
i don't even want to accept this.

anyway this side, help you alot in your tough life.

it's not warm, but it's complete you.
and both of my side or keny's one is completing

Keny's December Wishes

Keny speaking guuuuyss !!! :)
wow Ochii has written something before me xDDD does she in GALAU mode on ?? lol *hug Ochii tightlyyyyy*

Seperti judul di atas, Keny mau banyak2 berdoa di awal bulan Desember ini,yup hiks, hope being a lucky girl for this month :")

Sooo, check it out girls ...
Keny's December Wishes List :
1.) Lancar UAS Ya Tuhaaaaaaaaan :"(
2.) Buat SIM B haha~
3.) Sleepover with Ochii and the others *we should make a plan for this since now lol*
4.) Mau punya hamster -__-
5.) Cat ulang kamarrrrr !!!
6.) Spending new year eve with beloved besties :)
7.) He ... misses me LOL

Haaaaah segini dulu aja lah sebenernya Keny masih punya list yg lebih panjang lol
Sekian dari Keny~
Keny needs having a long sleep right now :")

Byebye Girlsssssss

stop

FREAKING OUT.

do you know how much i hate THOSE words?

i really hate it because i CAN'T GET OVER it.

if it already happened i'm feeling like i need TIME-MACHINE.

i want to have time machine so that i can change everything.

DAYDREAMING. oke ochii. stop it.